How I learnt to accept change

Misty Renee Posted 3 months ago
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The more I began to hate it, the more it started to take over me. It felt as if life could sense my fears. It felt as if life kept trying to mock me in the most unexpected ways. And it felt as if I would never be able to find the strength to accept things as they were, to forget about the past and truly live in the present, to enjoy every single day, to live in the moment and to be grateful for the things I have.

Change - it’s something that has always scared me the most in life. And I’m not just talking about the big changes. No, I mean change of all kinds and in all ways - whether it’s something as trivial as changing the furniture in my bedroom to something as depressing as my best friend shifting to a far-away city. I had always despised it. I had always tried to run away from it. And I had always thought of it as the worst aspect of human life.

But the more I began to hate it, the more it started to take over me. It felt as if life could sense my fears. It felt as if life kept trying to mock me in the most unexpected ways. And it felt as if I would never be able to find the strength to accept things as they were, to forget about the past and truly live in the present, to enjoy every single day, to live in the moment and to be grateful for the things I have.

Every time a change in my life made me felt uncomfortable, made me step out of my comfort zone, and brought me face to face with all the insecurities I always tried to keep hidden, I wondered if I was the only one who keeps feeling this horrible. I wondered if there was something seriously wrong with me. I wondered if I was never meant to be a part of this world - a world where you’re expected to constantly embrace change with open arms, to move on from long, intense relationships in the blink of an eye if you suddenly find someone better, to let go of the friends who aren’t adding any value to your life anymore even though you’ve been with them for as long as you can remember, to leave a job you love without saying a word because your boss just decided to hire someone better.

I get it if people don’t cry when they replace their old car with a new one, if their hair gets drastically changed due to a stupid haircut decision, or if they shift to a new house in the same town. But I wondered if they really don’t feel anything even when the relationships and the people around them keep changing all the time. And if they do feel something and if these changes do mess with their mind and heart, then how do they keep functioning so normally after that? How do they accept this uncertainty in life without any protest? How do they get themselves to forget the past and just focus on the present and on the days that lie ahead of them? - Continue reading on the next page