I was in love with him for a long time. He was an important part of my life and I had to see him wed another woman in front of my eyes. I was invited cordially and I had to go. I had to see his glowing smile one more time even though my body ached with pain. Everyone told me that I should move on. Some people told me that time will heal everything. How can time heal anything when you’re stuck in the moments you spent with them in your head?e
Nothing Made sense to me
No matter what anyone said, their words had no impact on me. I still tried. I went on a couple of dates and I tried to move on but when you are in love with someone for so long, the feelings latch on to your brain. As long as someone occupies your head and heart, you can’t find perfection in another person. You become insecure and you lose hope. You become skeptical about love.
At times, there were no emotions at all. There was this emptiness that shrouded me and I felt like a nihilist. I was in an existential crisis. I didn’t even want to pick the spoon up to eat and care about my health or comb my hair. Life had just lost meaning.
The best thing to do in a situation like this is to take a break from relationships. Love is an essential part of everyone’s life. The problem is after you’ve been heartbroken; life doesn’t just stop for you. You still have to live life. For me, I wasn’t living, I was just existing in my past every day. A past which had no chance of repeating itself in the future because he was long gone and acceptance is hard. - Continue reading on next page