I want you to actually fall in love with the person that you see, hear, and feel in front of you.
I am definitely more than just my body. I don’t want to be defined by how I look; what color my eyes are, how long my hair is, how luscious my lips are, how well-maintained my skin is. I don’t want to be seen as an object purely made for aesthetic pleasures. I am more than just eye-candy. I am not going to serve as mere visual entertainment for anyone. If you’re going to fall in love with me, I want you to fall in love with who I am; not what I look like. I don’t want you to just fall in love with who you see today, I want you to fall in love with what made me this way. I don’t want you to just fall in love with what I can become, I want you to also fall in love with everything that I have been.
It’s not enough that you’re just going to kiss me out of lust or physical pleasure. I don’t want you to think of me as a mere outlet for your carnal desires. I want you to be able to express your love for me through other ways. I don’t want our relationship to be confined within a physical space. I don’t want you to just talk endlessly without an aim or goal. I don’t want any senseless conversations with you. I want depth. I want something real; something heavy; something true. I need you to be open with me about things that you have difficulty grasping on your own. I want to be able to compensate for your vulnerabilities and insecurities.
I want you to actually fall in love with the person that you see, hear, and feel in front of you. I want you to fall in love with my body, soul, and spirit. It’s not enough that you are physically attracted to me. It’s not enough that you enjoy touching me or being around me. You have to genuinely fall in love with the idea of having me as a prominent facet of your life.
I wish you could be able to just get inside my head and see everything from where I stand. I wish you would be inquisitive almost to the point of where it’s like you are trespassing my soul. I want you to actually make an effort to really find out about the person you’re choosing to get involved with; the relationship you are choosing to share with me. I wish you would actually try to figure out how to shield me from my deepest fears and to protect me from all of my personal weaknesses. I wish you knew all the things that make me tick. That’s how I want you to show your affection for me. That’s how I want you to love me. – Continue reading on the next page
I want you to be able to face your fears with me. I want you to just talk to me about anything under the sun. I wish you could just become comfortable with being uncomfortable whenever you’re around me. I wish you would make a genuine effort to look beyond what you merely see on the outside. I wish you would come to terms with the fact that I am a flawed and imperfect human being. I have many complexities within me that need acceptance and understanding. I need you to be able to find out more about where you and I stand in this relationship. I want you to make an effort in figuring out how we mesh well together and where we clash as a couple. I want to be able to confide in you all of my happiest memories and all of my darkest experiences. I want you to know about all the lessons I have had to take to actually get me to this point in life.
I want this relationship to be made up of constant discovery and learning. I want to find out all about you and your life. And I wish you want to do the same with me as well. I want to be able to build something real with you. I want to be able to test it; to put it up against life’s harshest challenges and see whether we have what it takes to push forward.
I want to immerse myself in culture with you. I want to know about your perceptions of beauty and wonder. I want to know about the things that you are most passionate about; the things that ignite your soul and awaken your spirit. I want to be able to immerse myself in your life without limit or restriction.
I want all of this for us because you have to understand that when you choose to love me, the love transcends what my body has to offer. When I choose to love, I love with my entire heart, mind, and soul.