She already knows that you’re playing games with her even though she makes it seem like she doesn’t. She knows all about your moves and intentions; she knows all about the motivations that fuel your actions and she’s okay with it… for now.
You treat her like some sort of human ego booster. You treat her like some sort of personal trophy. You treat her like some adornment or accessory. You like her to be there because you feel like she somehow improves your self-image. And you want to keep her around as much as possible. And she lets you do it. She lets you have her way with her.
But don’t mistake her leniency for weakness. Don’t mistake her kindness for meekness. She isn’t dumb. She isn’t being blindly optimistic. She isn’t being naïve. It’s just that she sees some good you and she knows that this just might be your way of getting the bad stuff out of your system. She’s trying to be patient with you because she hopes that you’re eventually going to turn into the man that she needs you to be for her. She is hoping that one day the light is going to shine on you and you will realize just how badly you are treating her; and how much better you could be for her.
Deep down inside, she knows that you’re probably very scarred and damaged. She knows that you’ve been put through pain and she is trying to be as understanding and as tolerant as possible. She wants you to be able to get all of that negativity out of your system by letting you take it out on her. She’s strong enough to take it. She’s tough enough to handle it. But you also have to know that she has her limits. And she’s not going to be able to keep this up for too long.
No matter how dark a mood and environment you might be giving her, she is always going to welcome you with a warm smile. She is going to give you all the love and affection that she can give you just to help you become okay again. She is going to want to pull you out of whatever dark place you are stuck in; and the only way she knows how to do that is with her smile. She is going to put your own happiness above her own because it’s important to her that you genuinely feel comfortable and at ease whenever you’re with her.
She is very much willing to compromise her own well-being for the sake of you. She is very much willing to put her life on hold just so she can help you get along with yours. She is the woman who is willing to leave her life in disarray just to help you get your back on track.
She does this even though she knows that she’s risking a whole lot for you. She knows that there is a very likely chance that once you become okay again; once you do get your life together, you are just going to leave her in the dust. She knows that once you’ve used her up all that you can, you might end up abandoning her and leaving her out to dry. She knows that everything that she is doing for you now might not end up bearing any fruit. But she’s fine with that. However, she isn’t going to be fine with it for too long. She is only human after all. She still has her limits. She still has to look after herself at some point.
Again, you shouldn’t take her tolerance to mean that she’s okay with the way that you treat her. She isn’t okay with it at all. She doesn’t enjoy it one bit. But she knows that she has to tolerate you for a while to wait for you to come into your own. She knows that she has to let you be to some extent. But she can’t keep this up forever. She can’t keep on waiting for you if you’re not going to be able to show her signs of improvement. She can’t keep waiting around for you if you don’t give her anything worth waiting for.
At the end of the day, a great girl is always going to be willing to wait for you to be ready. But a great girl also knows her worth, and if you make her wait too long, you are going to lose her because she will do what is right for her. And at that point, you have no one else to blame but herself. You won’t be able to blame her. So don’t let it get to that point. Don’t make her wait for you even though you know that she would.