You’ve been unfaithful to your husband. You have engaged in less-than-perfect acts of infidelity and you’re feeling torn up about it. You know that you are in the wrong because you still want to try to make your marriage work; but you’ve made everything just too complicated. You’ve opened yourself up to falling in love with someone else. You’re completely smitten by another man and yet you’re desperate to try to make things work with the man you’re already married to. You’re torn apart. Your breaking yourself from the inside and you don’t know what to. You feel completely lost and helpless to the situation that you have somehow put yourself in.
You are so sick and tired of thinking that the world is going to judge and blame you alone; to make you feel like a complete piece of crap. At the end of the day, you’re human. You have your own personal urges and you are bound to give in to them every once in a while. You’re imperfect; and you have a few stumbles here and there. It’s part of being human, after all. You want to be happy; and sometimes, being happy means making the wrong choice every now and then. Like all other people in this world, you crave for emotional connections; and you look for these emotional connections wherever you can find them. You want to feel wanted.
You need to feel needed. You crave for the feelings of being desired and pursued. You want someone to put in the effort; to actually earn your company and your affection. And somehow, you found all of these things in another man; and it has put your marriage in jeopardy. You fell in love with someone else; and the worst part is that your husband found out about it. You realize that you are in the wrong. You realize that you are the reason your marriage is in jeopardy; and you need to do something quick before you lose your marriage completely. You know that you want to make your marriage work; but it seems like all of your efforts are futile at this point.
Is your marriage beyond repair? Has it been broken to the point that you are virtually incapable of bringing it back to where you once were? You feel so disheartened and vulnerable. You know that you need to cut yourself loose from your lover; the one you’re having an affair with. But you also know that things are looking really bleak for you and your husband. You obsess over the situation that you’re in; and you try to pore over every detail to make sure that you are able to exhaust all options. You want to make sure that you are able to see things from a clear perspective;
that you really know what kind of mess that you’re in so that you are better equipped to get yourself out of it. You know that what you did was inherently wrong; and yet somehow, you don’t feel all too guilty. You don’t feel bad. You know that it brought you happiness; and even though it has caused you to be in this regrettable situation; you somehow feel like you are justified in your actions. But you know that you can’t admit that to anyone; most especially not to your husband. You know that if you want to make things right, you’re going to have to assume all of that guilt. You know that you’re going to have to take responsibility of this situation.
You know that you’re going to have to own up to your humanity; to your faults in this relationship. You know that you can’t take your marriage for granted; and you always need to be appreciative of everything that your husband has given you in this marriage. Your heart may belong to someone else; but you know that you belong to this marriage. You feel like life is being unfair to you; but that’s just life. It’s not always going to be fair; and you’re just going to have to make do with what you’re given.
There are a few things that you need to keep in mind if you want to fix things in your relationship no matter how dire the situation might be. Yes, you engaged in infidelity. But the unfaithfulness doesn’t have to define your relationship as a whole. You may have committed mistakes in the past; but what matters most is how you conduct yourself in the relationship now and how you’re going to move on to the future. It isn’t going to be easy; and you’re really going to have to humble yourself. But if you genuinely believe that your marriage is worth fighting for, then you need to be able to exert that effort.
