I Don’t Regret Loving You, I Regret Not Loving Myself In The Process

I am not going to deny that I fell in love with you because I did. I’m not going to perjure myself by saying that you didn’t have a hold on my heart because you did. I’m not going to say that I wasn’t so passionate about you because I really was. In fact, our romance was probably the most passionate one that I have ever been with.

You just totally captivated me with your charm and I was smitten almost instantaneously. You were so wonderfully amazing in my eyes and I didn’t want to be with anyone else. I didn’t want to be in any other position. I only I had known then that I was only blinding myself to the things that I should have been seeing.

If only I had realized how foolish I was acting when I was with you. If only I had known that you would eventually be the cause of so much of my heartache and disappointment.

I don’t really have all too many regrets about getting in a relationship with you. I don’t really regret falling in love with you the way that I did. I don’t regret the two of us getting together at all.

But there’s definitely one thing that I wish I could change about that entire experience. I wish I could have loved myself more. I wish that I didn’t allow myself to love you too much to the point that I stopped loving myself in the process. I just regret failing to give myself the love that I deserved.

It wasn’t a mistake for me to find you and fall in love with you. It wasn’t a mistake for me to meet you and for the two of us to get together. In all honesty, I am so glad that our paths crossed.

Also Read  If You Can’t Love Me For Real, Then Please Just Leave Me Alone

I am so happy that I had the opportunity to meet you. In spite of how things turned out between the two of us, I still hold on to the many happy memories that we shared. Our relationship was far from being ideal. But it wasn’t all bad. I am confident that the universe has a plan for the two of us.

And I know that you walked into my life for a very specific reason. I know that there is a purpose for which you and I crossed paths. And that’s why I don’t really consider meeting you to be a mistake.

However, I do consider it a mistake that I allowed you to so easily change me. I used to always take care of myself. I always made sure that I was having all of my needs and expectations met. But when I got into a relationship with you, all sense of self-care and self-love flew right out of the window.

Being in a relationship with you triggered something in me that I should have tried to suppress. I gave all of my love to you and I left none for myself. I allowed myself to get consumed by the love that I had for you. In my eyes, you were the single most amazing person that I had ever encountered in this life.

And because of that, I just chose to let myself get carried away with my love for you. I ended up centering my entire world around yours all because of the sparks that I felt when we first got together.

Choosing to be in a relationship with you wasn’t a mistake. I always followed my heart when it came to you and I don’t really regret that. When I believed in the bottom of my heart that you were the one I was destined to spend the rest of my life with, I did so unashamedly. I trusted my gut. I listened to my instincts.

Also Read  You Know You Deserve Better But You Can’t Bring Yourself To Walk Away

And I’m never going to apologize for doing so. Yes, it turns out that my instincts were wrong at the time. But I don’t regret the many things I learned because of the choices that I made in the past.

I now know that there was one aspect of our experience together that I should have done better. Of course, I chose to be with you. I chose you to be the person I would spend the rest of my days with.

But that’s not all I chose to do. I actually chose you over myself. Instead of taking some time and energy to make sure that my needs were being met, I just focused entirely on you.

Instead of taking the time to think about what I needed in life, I was always just thinking about what I could do better to serve you. And frankly, that’s the only thing that I regret about us getting together.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

We sometimes include links to products we think are useful for our readers. If you purchase through links on this page, we may earn a small commission.