Even though you and I didn’t really have what it took to make things last, I’m still secretly hoping that we can pick things up where we left off. Sure, it can be really easy to say that our timing was just off. And I genuinely hope that that was the case. I still like to believe that you and I are meant to be with one another forever. Perhaps, you and I will cross paths again in the future. And this time, I hope that it’s going to be different. Hopefully, this time, the timing will be just right. And we will finally get our shout at forever; the shot that was stripped away from us when we weren’t ready.
Hopefully, someday, I’m going to run into you and it will be as if no time has passed at all. We will smile at each other, laugh, and just enjoy each other’s company. I want to be able to see you for everything that you are. Also, I want you to be able to love me for everything that I am. And ultimately, I want our love to be able to go on without having to stress about bad timing or unfortunate circumstances. You see, I still think that you and I are meant to be. Actually, I cling to the hope that you and I can still make it work in the future.
Clinging to a Hope
Hopefully, if the two of us meet one another in the future again, we will be in a better place than we were before. This time, things should go our way. This time, the universe should be conspiring in our favor. I really hope that I will be strong enough emotionally and mentally to be able to sustain a relationship with you. Also, I hope that you will be in a place in your life wherein you would be able to accommodate being in a relationship with me. I know that this is what killed us in the past. However, I am hopeful that this won’t be the end of our story. I am hopeful that the two of us still have a future with one another.
Ultimately, I really think that the only thing that we needed back then was more time and experience to figure things out. We were so young and naïve. We were so deluded. Of course, that might have been our fault. We may have jumped the gun and went into things rather quickly. However, I don’t think that we need to completely deprive ourselves of a future together just because of our past mistakes. After all, the future is determined by the present, right? Presently, I want you. And I’m hopeful that you want me too.
Two People Coming Together
We had very different personalities and roles in the relationship. You were someone who was always so used to harboring the weight of the world on your shoulders. You were the type of guy who always wanted to be going at a full sprint. So, I got left behind a lot. I was never one who was ever comfortable at living at that pace. I could just never keep up with you. Somehow, somewhere along the line, we just lost touch with one another. Sure, we might have been with one another in a physical sense. However, emotionally, we were just playing two different ballgames.
There were plenty of times wherein I would just feel completely overwhelmed by having to try to understand you. We were operating on different wavelengths. I didn’t always get why you were the way that you were. So, as a result, I always felt tired and exhausted whenever I was with you. Perhaps, it was this exhaustion that led to my irritability, insensitivity, and my utter annoyance. Of course, hindsight is 20/20, as they say. However, at that time, I just couldn’t understand why I was feeling any of those things. I didn’t fully grasp why things were the way that they were.
Moving Forward
Now, I know the things that we did wrong back then. I have a better understanding of why things didn’t turn out the way that we wanted it to. However, I am still hoping that our story has not reached its end. You know, it’s important for you to learn from your mistakes. And I know for certain that I have already earned from mine. I’m just hoping that you’ve also learned from yours as well. For the sake of our relationship, I want to be able to give it another shot. I still believe in forever with you.
At the end of the day, there’s nothing wrong with dreaming. So, let me hold on to my dream because it’s all that I’ve got in this moment. And I’m unapologetic about still wanting you to be in my life until the very end.
