No excuses. No alibis. No failures. No questions asked.
They still manage to find a way to flash their face in our minds. They loved us to a point where we were lost and we just couldn’t catch them then. We go back to thinking about all of those good moments and cherished memories that we used to share. We flash back to all those magical dates that seemed like everything went perfect for us on an enchanting night. We flash back to all those lazy Sundays where all we did was lay in bed and make love the whole day engaging in pillow talk in between sensual sessions. It was amazing. Those memories were amazing. You think back to all those times wherein you loved your partner more than anything else in this world but now you’re left to wonder if they ever really loved you the same way.
At the time, you were sure of their love for you. But now, looking back at everything, you don’t really carry the same kind of certainty anymore. You don’t carry the same kind of confidence in your love anymore and there’s a reason for that. You were willing to give all of who you were to the relationship. But were they willing to do the same? They motivated you to be better. They pushed you to become a whole new different person. They encouraged you to be the best possible version of yourself. Overall, you were a better human being with lots more to offer the world because of them. Before going into the relationship, you were pretty sure that you were a mature and capable individual who knew how to live an independent and noble life.
But when this person entered your life, you let all of your defenses down and you later on grew into a stronger person because of it. You started to understand what it meant to live a life for another; to no longer just be living for yourself; just because they walked into your life. But then things slowly began to change. You started to think about everything that you were putting into the relationship. You started wondering about how much of yourself you were giving to this love. You started thinking about the many sacrifices and compromises that you have had to make for this relationship. You think about all of the time and effort that you have had to devote to this romance. And ultimately, you start thinking about everything that you’re getting out of it as well; or if you’re even getting anything out of it at all.
You start to think that maybe you’re giving more to the relationship than you’re actually getting out of it. Maybe you’re valuing the romance so much more than your partner does. Perhaps you’re willing to give everything, but you feel like they’re not as willing to give as much of themselves. Then you’re really forced to rethink the entire relationship as a whole. There’s definitely a heavy undertone to when the person you consider to be the most important human being in the world isn’t willing to put you first; to put you above everyone or everything else. It means that you’re willing to prioritize someone who isn’t willing to reciprocate the dedication to you. And you get the sense that that isn’t what love is supposed to be at all.
You start to get sad at the idea of waking up to the thought of this person and you’re not even sure if they’ll be thinking of you at that moment either. They are a constant in your thoughts, but you are only a temporary placeholder in theirs and that idea hurts you deeply. It cuts like a knife. And slowly, you start to feel the love, passion, and excitement in the relationship die down. Things are becoming stale where once they felt like absolute heaven. In the parts where your relationship was all about adventure, discovery, and wonder, there is only habitual feeling and routine.
Nothing feels new or fresh anymore. Nothing feels like it’s worth exploring. Instead of feeling like every day was a new opportunity for adventure, it started feeling like every new day was a chore. And that’s what happens to love sometimes. We can fall so deeply for someone only to have that person slip away from us in the end. That person leaves and that person who was once our everything leaves us with absolutely nothing. It’s devastating.
Eventually, they might decide to come back. Or they may not. But what you do from here on out is entirely up to you. But more than anything else, it’s very important for you to know that if a person truly wanted to be with you, they would be. No excuses. No alibis. No failures. No questions asked. They would be with you.
