I would just honestly love to have all of the answers. I would just love to take a peek into the future and see that you will be the one who I spend the rest of the life with. I would love to be absolutely certain that when I’m old and wrinkled, I’ll be looking back on a full and happy life that was spent with you. But I can’t do that. And I’m not really going to force it because I’m okay with not knowing.
I am not really going to force the answers to reveal themselves to me. I am not going to look for answers that I know I’m never going to find in you, myself, or in anyone else. I am not going to fast forward through whatever we have because I don’t want to risk losing everything entirely. And so, I’m going to let destiny take over. I’m going to let go and accept whatever fate has in store for us. I will let us go our own ways. I will allow us to live our own individual lives. I will just cling to the hope that maybe we will eventually find our way back to one another.
I know that there is a very real chance that we will end up drifting apart the moment that we decide to pursue our own individual interests. I know that there is a very real chance that you and I will not end up together once it is all said and done. But I just have to continue to cling to that hope. I just need to continue to believe that you and I are going to have the fairytale ending that we want together. I have to cling to the belief that if two people are just meant to be together, then they are going to end up finding a way to make it work someday.
Sure, you can say that I’m just being naïve and immature. You can say that I’m just clinging to childhood fantasies. You can say that I’m probably just being blindly optimistic. But I don’t really care. I believe that I can do whatever I want. I can pursue the life that I think that I’m deserving of. I believe that I can let you be free and forge your own path as well.
And I also believe that no matter what we end up doing or where we end up going, we’re still going to find a way back into each other’s hearts and lives so as long as fate wills it. I still like to believe that nothing else really matters so as long as destiny is on our side. I believe in fate. I believe in destiny. I believe in us. And everything else is just going to be noise. Everything else is just a distraction. I will believe that you and I are going to find a way to fulfill our shared dreams.
But the truth is that I don’t really have much of a choice. I don’t really have anything else to hold on to. And I guess that’s why I’m so confident in the fact that you and I will be able to make things work. It’s because I believe in you so much. It’s because I believe in myself so much.
I believe in us so much to the point that none of the challenges and difficulties are going to faze me. I am unafraid. I am not intimidated to any extent. I truly do think that if you believe in something or someone so much, you are always going to find a way to make your beliefs come into fruition.
However, I also realize that timing is of the essence. I might believe that the two of us are going to end up together, but I’m not going to be sure about the timing of it all. Just because I want us to be together now doesn’t mean that that’s what is going to take place. Timing isn’t going to be up to me and that’s why I have to learn to be patient. Maybe our time isn’t right now. Maybe forever isn’t here for us just yet. And that’s okay. I’m not worried.
Do you know why? It’s because I know that this connection between us isn’t going to fade despite the time or distance. I know that this bond isn’t going to go away just because we go our separate routes. I know that our love is going to be strong enough to lead us back into each other’s lives somewhere down the line.
Sure, it won’t be the easiest path towards forever. But that doesn’t seem like such a big deal when I know that forever is going to come anyway.