I would like you to know that I’m very thankful to you for breaking me. I just want to thank you for treating me the way that you did. I know that you might not get this reaction a lot from people that you’ve hurt in the past. But you shouldn’t think I’m crazy for it. I’m not lying either. I really am thankful for you breaking me.
Thank you for treating me like an utter piece of garbage. Thank you for discarding my heart as if it were random trash. It was because of those things that I realized how I should have been treated in the first place.
It was because of the way that you harassed me that I learned that I should never settle for a man who doesn’t respect my dignity. You were the living manifestation of everything that I should have been doing my best to avoid in this world.
I really don’t deserve to be with a guy who is just going to make fun of my many imperfections. I don’t deserve to be with someone who is only going to laugh at the fact that I am a regular human being with flaws and blemishes.
I don’t deserve to be with a man who is only going to feed into my insecurities; a guy who is only going to make fun of me for being who I am. I don’t deserve to be with a guy who is constantly belittling me even when he should be loving me with all of my heart. I understand that there is room for criticism in every kind of relationship.
However, I also know that criticism should be done out of love and not out of some sick and sadistic sense. I deserve to be with a guy who isn’t afraid of making me feel good about myself.
I deserve to be with a guy who boosts my confidence and sense of self-esteem. I deserve to be with a man who is always going to love me for who I truly am on the inside; a guy who inspires me to be better every single day.
I don’t deserve to be with someone who makes me want to crawl into a hole and disappear into forever. I deserve to be with a man who loves me for me; a man who would never want to change me.
I don’t deserve to be with someone who makes me cry myself to sleep every single night. I don’t deserve to be with someone who actually brings out the worst in me.
I deserve to be with a guy who gives me a shoulder to cry on whenever life starts to get too overwhelming. I deserve to be with a man who is going to hold my hand and make sure that I’m alright as I try to face the challenges of tomorrow. I deserve to be with a man who is always going to be there for me whenever I need him.
I deserve to be with a guy who is always going to show up for me and not just when it’s convenient for him to do so. I don’t deserve a guy who fluctuates with the way that he walks in and out of my life.
I don’t deserve a guy who just refuses to give me any kind of stability or consistency. I deserve to be with a man who is always going to offer me peace of mind; a man who is always going to make sure that I never feel like I am being left behind or forgotten.
I deserve to be with a man who understands my worth; a guy who always makes me feel valued and appreciated so as long as we stay together. I need a man who can prove to me that he’s there to stay.
You couldn’t be that guy for me and that’s okay. You were the one who made me realize that I should never settle for anything less anymore. You were the guy who taught me that I shouldn’t stay with a man who isn’t willing to stick things out with me.
I want to thank you for cheating on me and breaking my heart. I want to thank you for discarding me like a used toilet paper that you wiped your ass with. Now, I truly know that I wasn’t the bad guy in our relationship. You made me realize that my heart was in the right place and you were just a piece of crap.
I’m over it now. I’m no longer going to be entertaining pieces of crap in my life and that’s all because of you. Thank you for teaching me to always pursue what I’m worth and to never settle for anything less.