It’s all about give and take.
You want to believe in people’s capacity to do good to be good. You want to believe in people so much because you wish for everyone to treat you well. You take a chance on a person and you just wish that things turn out for the best. You know just how much it would hurt to be let down and to be disappointed. You’ve been let down by people before but you renew your hope for the people that walk into your life in the future. You cling to the hope that maybe, this time, things won’t take a turn for the worse.
You make plans with someone in an effort to build on your connection with one another. You get your hopes up and they cancel on you. It hurts, but you don’t let it bother you too much. You know that you would never cancel on plans for a date. You know that you would never want to be a flaker. You respect other peoples’ time and commitment to much to bail on them. But it’s as if people can’t seem to pay you the same kind of respect. And that’s okay. You’re used to it. You still stick to your principles. When you say that you’re going to be there, you are going to be there on time.
And it can get frustrating how you’re the one who always seems to be on the losing end. You’re the one who is always left waiting. You’re the one whose hopes are continuously crushed. You’re the one who is always left in want. You’re the one who has to keep on sticking to your principles because you don’t know how to live a life otherwise. You continue to love the way that you do because it’s the only way you know how to love.
You have so much love inside of you to give and you never feel like you have to hold back. You never hold back. You give so much of yourself to the people you meet even though they haven’t done anything to earn it yet. In your mind, you don’t think that love is something that people have to earn from you. You willingly dole it out because you feel like there is a lack of love in this world and it’s your duty to spread it as much as possible. And it can get particularly difficult when you know that you dole love out so freely but you have to work so hard to get it back in return. You bend over backwards just to get people to love you the way that you love them and you just hope that it all works out in the end.
You love so deeply and you never hesitate to do so because you know just how powerful the right love at the right time could be. You keep trying your best to stick to your ideals on love. And even though you keep getting shut down and disappointed with each attempt, your heart doesn’t waiver. You know that this is still the fight that’s worth fighting for. You know that you still need to stick things through. You understand that love is never something that you can just choose to give up on. You keep on trying. You keep on going. You keep on loving.
And it’s difficult for you to keep doing what you do to keep loving the way that you do. You feel like no matter how much effort you put into it, you never get the kind of returns that you think you deserve.
You have always been taught to love yourself because they claim that no one will ever love you unless you know how to love yourself. They tell you that no one will ever grow to believe in loving you if you keep on putting yourself behind others. But you choose to ignore that kind of thinking. You still think that it’s much better to share love than to just keep it to yourself.
And you should keep on doing that. You should continue to believe in that. You have to keep on giving love wholeheartedly. You need to keep on loving people the way that you do without hesitations and reservations. You need to keep on loving without limits.
And eventually, that kind of positive energy is going to make its way back to you. You are going to meet someone who will love you the way that you really deserve. You are going to love a person who is going to make you feel vindicated. You are going to fall in love with someone who will make all of your struggles worth it. You are going to love someone who will love you the way that you love them.