Story of my life!
Everyone knows how difficult it is to have to bear with the heartbreak and emotional trauma of a breakup. But we have to realize that time is always going to be on our side when it comes to healing. You have to remember that the future still belongs to you and that just because you are suffering now doesn’t mean you also have to suffer in the future.
And yet, this recent breakup just isn’t the same. It seems like this particular pain that you’re feeling now is a cut above the rest. You used all the tricks that you used on previous breakups but nothing seems to work. You are starting to think that not even time can heal this wound. There was something special about this person and this relationship. You know this to be a fact because it’s as if you can’t go a day without thinking about this person.
You try to tell yourself that you’re going to be okay. You try to convince yourself that things are going to work out for the best. You try to confide yourself in the idea that you’re eventually going to move on. And for a little bit, it actually works for you. But you’re never completely okay. There is still a lingering feeling of uneasiness and discomfort within you. You try to shut out these bad feelings as much as possible but there are just so many triggers around you. A simple song on your Spotify playlist that reminds you of him is going to be enough to set you off. Then you’re back to where you started in the first place. You’re back to a place where you think you need to be around one another in order for you to really be happy.
There have just been too many persons who have crossed paths with you in life. There were some you just dated for a short period of time and you never really invested much of yourself in them. There were some who you were really interested in, but you just had a few irreconcilable differences. And then there are those who really meant a lot to you, and it may have been difficult to get over them, but you eventually did.
But this one in particular is just an experience that is on its own level. This isn’t something that you can just accept and move on from. You know that there is some very specific unfinished business there that you need to pick up at a later date. This isn’t one of those breakups where you find yourself saying, Okay, we tried our best, but maybe we should move on to better things. This isn’t one of those scenarios at all because you know you’re just not going to be able to move on to better things. You know that this isn’t a phase of your life that you’re willing to let go of just yet.
This is when you seem to be cast into a love vacuum. You can’t seem to move and you’re suspended in mid-air with nothing to hold on to.
You know that you love someone so deeply but you can’t really do anything about it. You know that the ideal relationship is out there for you to grab, but you find yourself unable to do so because of a lot of external factors. This is one of those times where it seems like love is just beyond your control no matter how much you want things to work out.
You know that this connection is for real because your heart is telling you so. It’s as if you have established a mutual bond with each other that you’ve never quite been able to establish with anyone else. It’s a bond so strong that it keeps drawing you back into its center of gravity no matter how hard you try to escape it. And the fact is you don’t even want to escape it at all. You want to let this gravity consume you because you know that it’s what’s meant to happen. Unfortunately, your time together has been cut short somehow and you don’t know what to do with yourself.
You know that you are going to end up with this person eventually because being with anyone else would practically be a sin at this point. It would be a mistake. You wouldn’t be able to live with yourself if you knew that you just let this one go. But still the fact remains that you can’t be together. You aren’t going to be able to do anything to change that situation and so you just choose to passively sit and wait things out. You’re not even sure if your patience is going to pay off but you still do it. You’re waiting for something that you’re not even sure is going to come. And that’s what it means to be caught in a love vacuum.
