I am just so fed up with playing these childish and immature dating games that a lot of people seem to be obsessing over. I have no interests in being manipulative or in being manipulated. I am so sick of people acting two-faced; of people always having ulterior motives. I just wish everyone would be clear about what they want and how they feel.
In the field of love and romance, I just want everything to be laid out all into the open. I want you to wear your emotions on your sleeve just right where I can see it. I’m not interested in playing any more games. I’m not interested in whatever moves you might have planned. I’m not interested in any inhibitions. And I’m most definitely not interested in a half-baked kind of love. I am the kind of girl who loves withall of my heart. I don’t do any half measures at all. When I love, I really give it my all. I always go for the unconditional kind of love. I’m not really in it for the casual hookups or short-term flings.
For me, it’s a fairly simple equation. It’s either you want me in your life and so you will do everything in your power to keep me there or you just plainly don’t. It’s not all that complicated. Let’s not pretend like this is a difficult concept to grasp. That’s the way it has always been and that’s how it’s always going to be with me. I don’t go to the grey area. I’m not interested in the in-between. I’m not really looking to be anyone’s side chick. I’m not looking to be a temporary pastime. I’m not some kind of placeholder. I’m the real deal. And if you can’t handle that, then you get nothing.
For me, love is always going to be the most sacred and beautiful thing in the entire world. It’s a very deep and profound experience that you get the opportunity to share with another human being. It’s a high-level vibration that can’t be taken for granted at all. And that’s why I’m not really interested in falling in love with someone who isn’t going to take it seriously. I’m not interested in someone who is going to be content with half-efforts and half-measures. I’m not interested in maybes. I’m only in it for the people who are going to go all-in as well.
And if you happen to be on the fence with me, then don’t even try. That’s not love. Love is never something that you would be unsure of. Love is never something that you would be uncertain about. And I am so done with trying to force other people to love me the way that I think I deserve to be loved. I am always surrounded by so many people who settle for mediocre relationships because they think that what they have is true love. They fool themselves into thinking that their delusions are valid and noble even when in reality, they aren’t. They would always rather go for the more convenient and comfortable route even though it isn’t really the path that they should be on.
And I’m not all about that life. In fact, I want nothing to do with that life. I’m not looking to settle for anything and most especially not love. I am not going to find myself in a mediocre relationship and be okay with it. I am not going to force myself to love someone who I have to force to love me in return. You can keep your stability. You can keep your consistency. I don’t want any of it if it isn’t built on a strong and reliable foundation of love. You can take it all back. I am never going to want to be with someone who doesn’t care about me enough to give me their all.
You might think that it’s a little more complicated than that but it really isn’t. You might think that there are so many more layers to it but that isn’t the case at all. It’s either you love me or you don’t. It’s either you give it your all for me or you won’t. It’s either you exert maximum effort or you give me none of it at all. Because in love, there is no such thing as moderation. In love, there is no such thing as second-guessing. There is no such thing as a half-baked love. So love me. Love me with all of your heart. Love me with all of your might. Love me with everything that you’ve got. Or don’t love me at all. And leave me. There is no in-between.