I Want You To Have All The Love That I Can Give

I’ll give you every emotion I have <3

The moment that I get up each day, I consider it as an opportunity for myself to let you know that I have so much love for you. The very second that my eyes open and my mind starts to condition itself to the real world, it immediately lingers to the thought of you and just how thankful I am to have you in my life. I look over to your side of the bed and I see that you’re still asleep. I try to will you awake with my mind but at the same time, I want to preserve you as you are. Relaxed. At ease. Innocent. Pure. Just like a little baby. I want to hold you in my arms and protect you from all the harms of this world. I want to love you in the ways that you have always deserved to be loved. The sun’s rays are slowly starting to seep into the room an shine a nice little light of warmth on your face. You illuminate like a little angel here on earth and I just can’t help but fall in love with you more and more. Your eyes start to roll and I see that you’re beginning to wake up as well. I smile because I want you to see and feel my happiness right when you wake up. You smile back at me and my day is made even if I haven’t even gotten out of bed yet. 

I want to be the best part of your every day. I want to be the reason that you get out of bed in the mornings. I want to be the persistent ray of sunshine in your life no matter how dark things may get. I want to give you all of the love that I can possibly give. I want you to never feel like you lack love in your life. 

You change into some fresh clothes, you wash your face, and you immediately proceed to the kitchen to cook up some breakfast for the both of us. I love how you take care of me even when I don’t ask you to. I love how you try to make me happy because it makes you happy to see me smile. I love how you are always putting in the work for our relationship even when it’s inconvenient to do so. I love how you love me unconditionally and I want you to know that I feel the same way. There are no lengths I would not go to make you feel just how much I love you. I follow you into the kitchen just so I can watch you work. You move so effortlessly and seamlessly around the room like a gazelle. I don’t know if it’s because my mind is tricking myself into seeing you in that way or if you’re really someone who is out of this world. I watch you crack open a few eggs and lay strips of bacon so tenderly on the fryer. I listen to the sizzle of the meat and I’m reminded of the passion that I have for you. I would do anything to keep that sizzle and flame of our relationship alive. I want to constantly be reigniting that spark every day that we’re together. I want to be more than enough for you. 

We finish our breakfast and we have to go our separate ways now. You have to go to work, and I have my own errands to do as well. And I consider these moments to be the most difficult parts of the day the moments when we’re not together. As clich as it may sound, you are really what makes me feel complete in this life. Without you, I feel like a huge chunk of me ceases to exist. And I have honestly never felt that with any other person in my life at all. But it’s okay. I don’t let the physical distance faze me because I know that emotionally, you are always in my heart and I am always in yours. I use the idea of seeing you again soon as fuel to keep me motivated throughout the day. You are the source of energy in my life and I always channel all of that energy into ways of loving you. That is the cyclical nature of our love and I wouldn’t have it any other way. 

I know that the love that we have is rare, but I think that it still isn’t enough. You deserve so much more than what I’m able to give and I pray that every day, I can become the person who is really worthy of your love. But until then, I’m just going to keep on loving you the only way I know how with everything that I have.