I want you to know that it’s okay that you chose to betray my trust.
I want you to know that it’s okay that you’re not a perfect human being. Your flaws, imperfections, and shortcomings all serve as reminders for me that you are just a regular human being like everybody else. They all remind me that I can still find beauty, wonder, and joy in something that is scarred, broken, and imperfect. You remind me that out of something so simple and ordinary, I can find something extraordinarily wonderful.
I want you to know that it’s okay if you came up short on loving me the way that I wanted to be loved or the way that I deserved to be loved. I am a generally loving human being and I am going to be giving love regardless of the amount of love that I get in return. I am confident enough in myself and in any relationship that I’m in about how I should be loved and how I should be loving in return.
I want you to know that it’s okay that you just didn’t know any better. It’s okay that you decided to lie to me and try to manipulate me by vaguely distorting the truth. It’s okay that you thought that I was never worthy of the truth, and that you could never fully trust me with it. It’s okay that you took me for granted and used me for things that are less than noble. I want you to know that it’s okay that you were the constant cause of my heartaches and my emotional pains.
I want you to know that it’s okay that you made all of those mistakes. We all know that what you did wasn’t right and that I definitely deserved better. I know it. And more importantly, you know it as well. You are only human after all and you are always going to be prone to making these mistakes. I can only hope that now, you have learned from them, and that you would never treat any other person the way that you used to treat me.
I want you to know that it’s okay because in spite of all the things that you and I have been through, I know that you are an inherently kind and loving human being who just had a few stumbles along the way.
You broke my heart and it’s comforting to know that I am really okay with it.
I want you to know that it’s okay because the truth is that I loved you and I still love you. And if I never allow myself to be okay with everything that happened; with everything that you did, then things are just going to end up getting worse for me. I cannot allow myself to carry this kind of emotional weight on my shoulders and so that’s why I have to force myself to be okay with things. I don’t want to keep on carrying this heaviness in my heart by not forcing myself to be okay with everything.
I want you to know that I love you and I really can’t bring myself to stop loving you in spite of everything. I can’t force my heart to stop loving you and I’m going to have to be okay with that. For the sake of my own well-being, I have to be okay with how things are and how things are going to be.
I want you to know that it’s okay that you chose to betray my trust. You’re not going to be able to earn it so quickly if you want to, but the possibility is still there. I am not going to shut myself off completely from the prospect of rebuilding my trust for you. I am one who believes in second chances and I think that you’re worthy of one. But it’s going to take some time.
I want you to know that it’s okay that you chose to broke my heart because I’m at a place now where I realize that opening yourself up to love can be scary, but it’s always going to be worth it. I now understand that closing my heart off to people is never going to be an option no matter how much it might hurt in the end because eventually, we all learn to be okay with things no matter how painful.
But most of all, I want you to know that I’m okay with myself letting you off the hook. I won’t put any pressure on myself to be vindictive, bitter, sad, or angry at how you treated me because I’ve chosen to let go of all of that negativity. And I’ve discovered that the only real way to let go of all of that negativity is to just sit and be okay.
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