Boy, bye! ????
Your pillows practically take most of the damage every night when you cry yourself to sleep. You are so sad and you don’t know why that is. You don’t understand how being in a relationship that is supposed to bring fulfilment and happiness in your life ends up being the sole cause of your unhappiness and emptiness. Your relationship is the reason why you feel so alone and broken. You relationship has fueled your insecurities and vulnerabilities. But it wasn’t always like this; and maybe that is what is adding to the pain that you feel today. You know that things weren’t always this bad and you’re still clinging to the chance that maybe you can get back to where you used to be.
There was a time where he always made you feel like you were loved and valued. He always managed to make you feel like you were the only girl for him. He somehow made you believe that he only had eyes for you. And you loved that he was able to make you feel all of these things. You love that he was someone who made you feel comfortable and at ease. And then gradually, the feelings of positivity started to dissipate on you. Things started to change. And these were very minute and insignificant changes at first and so you didn’t really think much of it.
But then one day, it hit you. You were unhappy and it was because of him; the man who used to be the biggest source of happiness in your life. You find yourself suspended in a downward spiral that is your relationship and you don’t know how to stop everything from unfolding before your very eyes. You want to put a stop to things and somehow go back to where you used to be but you don’t know how. You don’t know what to do. The happiness inside of you is slowly being killed the longer that you stay together. And you know that you need to make a change for the sake of your own well-being.
The truth is that you really don’t deserve to be subject to this kind of treatment. You don’t deserve to be treated so badly in your own relationship. You don’t deserve the negativity that seems to be taking over your life. You don’t deserve to the subject of someone else’s games. You know that the longer you stay with him, the more emotional torment that you are allowing him to bring into your life. The truth is that you don’t deserve that at all.
You deserve to be with a guy who is going to hold your hand and pick you up whenever you feel weak and vulnerable. You deserve to be with a man who doesn’t make you feel like he’s doing you a favor by being with you. You deserve to be with someone who doesn’t make it feel like you are a burden in his life. You don’t deserve to be with someone who makes you believe in your own worthlessness. You don’t deserve to be with someone who makes your life difficult. You really deserve to be with a guy who helps pull you up; not someone who brings you down.
You don’t deserve to be subjected to inconsistent behavior. You don’t deserve to be stuck in a state of constantly having to read between the lines when it comes to him. You don’t deserve to be with a guy who just makes you feel confused about how your relationship is going. You need a guy who is able to give you certainty and assuredness. You deserve to be with someone who makes you feel secure about the state of your relationship.
You need to be with a guy who is consistent enough to actually give you the kind of confidence that you need to know that he will still be there for you when you wake up in the morning. You don’t deserve to be with a guy who makes you feel like he could abandon you at any moment’s notice. You need to be with a man who makes you feel sure about who you are because there is already so much uncertainty in this world as it is. You deserve to be with someone who doesn’t only treat you right when it’s convenient, but someone who treats you well ALL THE TIME.
You don’t deserve to be a guy’s plaything. You don’t deserve to feel underappreciated in your own relationship. You don’t deserve to feel unloved by the man you love the most. You don’t deserve to feel like you don’t have value in this world. So stop settling for the man who is undeserving of your love in the first place. You deserve better.