She doesn’t want to turn away from you, but she can’t be forcing herself to love someone who practically treats her like she doesn’t exist.
She doesn’t want to turn away from you but she feels like she really doesn’t have any other option. She doesn’t want to be the one who walks away from the relationship, but you just haven’t given her enough excuses to stay. She doesn’t want to stop wasting all of her time on you, but you haven’t really given her a reason to stay devoted to you. She is constantly giving you chunks of her heart because she trusts you, but it feels like you’re virtually incapable of reciprocating that trust to her. And it breaks her inside every single time you refuse to let her in. She gives you all the reasons in the world to love her, to stay by her side at all times. But you haven’t given her any reason to still believe in your love. You haven’t given her any reason to believe that you could still change. So she’s picking up the pieces before she decides to turn and run away. She has no other option.
She doesn’t want to turn away but she can never feel the kind of gratitude and validation that she needs from you to stay. It’s as if all of her efforts and gestures always go unnoticed and unappreciated. She doesn’t want to turn away from you but you never reply to any of her messages. You never return any of her missed calls. She doesn’t want to turn away from you but you keep cancelling on dates with her. She doesn’t want to turn away from you but you just keep on using her own feelings and emotions against her. You manipulate and abuse her to the point where she has no energy to do anything for herself anymore. She does all she can to make you happy even though all you do is make her feel miserable and unaccepted. She doesn’t want to turn away from you but for her sake, she has to.
She doesn’t want to turn away but you cause more trouble in her life than you could possibly ever imagine. Instead of bringing peace into her heart, you are constantly giving her anxiety, restlessness, and chaos. Instead of giving her a sense of certainty and calm, you are always making her doubt and second-guess herself. Instead of making her feel like the most beautiful girl in the room, you make her feel like the ugliest. Instead of making her feel like she’s smart enough to actually offer the world something, you make her feel like she’s too dumb to even be with you. You are constantly making her feel like she isn’t worth anyone’s time. You are constantly making her feel like she isn’t enough that she needs to be more; that she needs to do more. You are constantly making her try TOO hard to be happy even though happiness shouldn’t be so difficult to find in a supposedly loving relationship. You make her believe in her own helplessness because she understands that there’s nothing else she could possibly do to win you over. She doesn’t want to turn away but you really leave her with no other choice.
She doesn’t want to turn away from you but you keep disappointing her at every turn. You don’t make the most out of the chances that she is constantly throwing your way. You don’t grab at the opportunities to try and make her happy. You keep on screwing up and she keeps on forgiving you, but you have shown no signs of improvement. She keeps on hoping that eventually, you will do things right by her, but you never seem to step up to the plate. She hopes that you finally end up appreciating everything that she does for you, but you just don’t seem to be able to give her any reason to believe so. As much as she wants to give you more chances in life, it seems like she’s finally run out of chances to give.
She doesn’t want to turn away from you, but she can’t be forcing herself to love someone who practically treats her like she doesn’t exist; like she’s some sort of invisible woman who doesn’t need to be given any attention. She doesn’t want to turn away from you but it seems like her heart can no longer take all of the drama that you bring into this relationship. Her heart can’t seem to take all of the disappointment that comes with dating you; with loving you. She doesn’t want to end up like the fool who keeps trying the same thing over and over again only to constantly find failure at the conclusion.
She doesn’t want to turn away from you, but there’s nothing else she can do. You haven’t given her much reason to stay.