I know that life was never designed to be easy and I understand that I’m going to have to fight and work hard for the things that I want. I’m the type of person who tries to bend the laws of nature just to get my way. I’m the kind of person who thinks that I can defy the rules of the universe just so I can get the things that I want. I will fight fate. I will fight destiny. I will take on whatever plans the universe might have for me and I will try to alter them to suit my liking. If I don’t understand something, then I’m not going to entertain it or give it much importance especially when I feel like it shouldn’t matter much to me. When something that I’m passionate about doesn’t turn out the way that I want it to, then I try to move heavens and earth to make sure that I can remedy the situation to the best of my abilities. I have learned to throw my fair share of punches at things that I don’t welcome in life. I’m not afraid of the battle scars and wounds that come with fighting back against life. I know that that’s part of the deal and I have readied myself for it. But the truth is that I’m frightened. I am not a person who is without fear. I’m afraid whenever things don’t go according to plan. I lose my wits whenever the pieces of the puzzle don’t seem to fit. I get really anxious whenever I hear the universe telling me things that I don’t particularly want to hear. I get really nervous when I know that I don’t have full control of the situation that I find myself in. I get really uneasy when I’m leaving the fate of my life in someone or something else’s hands. I need for things to constantly make sense to me because otherwise, I feel like I’m going to lose it.
However, I also know that I lose a lot. I may fight a lot of battles, but that doesn’t mean that I win all of them. I may be resilient but resilience doesn’t always guarantee success. I try my best to push back at the things that I think are threatening me but I can get overwhelmed fairly often. I demand so much from the world but the world doesn’t always cooperate. I fight so hard for the things that I want, but sometimes, the things that I want don’t want me. I have tried my hand at many things, but trying can only get you so far. I have grown to understand that I am not the only entity that factors into every equation.
It’s because of all of my failures and shortcomings that I’ve learned a valuable lesson that I wish I could have learned a long time ago. It’s because of my helplessness that I have grown to realize that I just have to be able to leave it up to fate sometimes. What’s meant to be is going to happen. And what isn’t meant to be, I’m going to have to learn to let go. The sad truth is that life’s plans for us aren’t always going to agree with the plans that we have for ourselves. Sure, there will be times where we can get things to go our way. There will be times where we actually find ourselves winning. There will be moments of pure elation where we seem to be getting everything that we want. But the converse is also true. There will be times wherein no matter how hard we try, we will fail. There are moments wherein no matter how much strength we muster, we are going to stumble and fall. There are going to be stages in life wherein you will feel like nothing is going your way; where the universe seems to be playing all of its tricks on you; where fate seems to be bullying you. And that’s just part of human existence. That’s part of what makes up life as we know it. It’s a rollercoaster, as they say. It’s going to have its share of ups and downs, and we just have to brace ourselves for the ride.
Life is going to force us to confront a lot of uncomfortable questions that we might have about our existence. And that’s okay. It’s part of our growth and development as human beings. It’s part of what makes life so interesting. At the end of the day, we have to always try our best. But we also have to recognize the fact that not even our best will be able to alter the strict hands of fate. And that’s why we have to be adaptable as well. That’s why we have to be flexible. And most of all, we have to be accepting. Sometimes, the things that we want the most for ourselves aren’t going to happen for us. And sometimes, when we least expect it, life takes away our greatest desires, and it hands us something better. If it’s meant for you, it will come. If it isn’t meant for you, then learn to let go.